Tomboy - H

I am forever looking for an arena in which I can unleash my competitive spirit, preferably in something that I'm at least kind of good at, b/c it's much more fun that way. Maybe I'm still a tomboy, but I just love playing sports, at least I remember loving to play sports. It's been a looooooong time since I've put my foot to a soccer ball or hand on a frisbee and felt the wind in my face as I run up and down the field. I know running up and down the field doesn't sound appealing to most, but I feel a sense of nostalgia when I step onto a freshly cut and painted soccer field and imagine myself with a ball at my feet looking toward the net, at least I used to. Some of my favorite memories of high school were sneaking into the gym at school to play indoors during the winter. Maybe 15ish people from the girls and boys soccer teams would show up, and we'd just play for the next few hours. There was a group of guys and girls in college who spent the whole summer playing ultimate frisbee in the humid, midwestern heat. Good times!

Besides the good memories, one of the reasons I like sports is b/c it's one of the few places where I feel like I know my way around and where I know that I can hold my own. I haven't played in a while, so maybe that isn't quite as true anymore. Sigh. While I know I have other strengths and skills, for one reason or another, those things just haven't been as satisfying...or maybe it's that they haven't been satisfying in the same way. I miss competition and the physical challenge too. I guess I need to stop talking about it and do something to find opportunities, leagues, etc. I just wish it were as easy for me to find pick up games or people to play with as it is for guys. sigh. Maybe I should have been a boy. I'm still such a tomboy.

Isn't it funny how as we get older, the boys congregate and do their boy activities, and the girls do the same, just like it was when we were younger in elementary school? ...but I want to play with the boys and girls.