On my own - H
...pretending he's beside me. All alone, I wait for him till morning. Without him...
Just kidding. These are the lyrics to one of the songs in Les Mis, but I am on my own for the next 10 days while E is in Kenya. I didn't worry about this day until it came. I think I probably would have tried to dissuade E from going if I actually thought about it more, but I wanted him to go more than I wanted him to stay so I just put it out of my mind until now. It may sound silly and a bit dramatic, but I thought about how it's possible that he wouldn't make it back. I think Proverbs or maybe it's somewhere else in the Bible that talks about how fools boast about tomorrow, so I wanted to make sure I said the things that I wanted to say...at least a few things. Apparently E thought along those lines too and prepared something in that event too. In some ways silly, but in other ways not.
I wonder how J will take it, if she'll notice after a few days that she hasn't seen Daddy in a long time. These days she's quite attached to me, so maybe that's good timing. I wonder what it'll be like when she sees him for the first time in 10 days. Will she be as excited as she is when she sees his car as he's driving home from work, or will he be met with a bit of uncertainty and cautious familiarity? We'll see in 10 days. I already miss him. (sniff, sniff) It's the first time in 5 years we've been apart for this long.
Just kidding. These are the lyrics to one of the songs in Les Mis, but I am on my own for the next 10 days while E is in Kenya. I didn't worry about this day until it came. I think I probably would have tried to dissuade E from going if I actually thought about it more, but I wanted him to go more than I wanted him to stay so I just put it out of my mind until now. It may sound silly and a bit dramatic, but I thought about how it's possible that he wouldn't make it back. I think Proverbs or maybe it's somewhere else in the Bible that talks about how fools boast about tomorrow, so I wanted to make sure I said the things that I wanted to say...at least a few things. Apparently E thought along those lines too and prepared something in that event too. In some ways silly, but in other ways not.
I wonder how J will take it, if she'll notice after a few days that she hasn't seen Daddy in a long time. These days she's quite attached to me, so maybe that's good timing. I wonder what it'll be like when she sees him for the first time in 10 days. Will she be as excited as she is when she sees his car as he's driving home from work, or will he be met with a bit of uncertainty and cautious familiarity? We'll see in 10 days. I already miss him. (sniff, sniff) It's the first time in 5 years we've been apart for this long.
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