Mommy's proud of you! - H
J awoke at 230AM and wailed and screamed for about 2 hours. It would have been shorter had we just given in and given her what she wanted which was for Mommy to come and tuck her in and watch her until she fell asleep. Some days I just give up and give in b/c I just don't have the wherewithal to handle a long drawn out tantrum, but other days I'm determined to try to push J a bit and teach something.
Well, last night was one of those nights where I wanted to teach something. She eventually ending up standing at the side of my bed crying for me to tuck her in, to carry her back to her bed, to put her back in bed, etc. all things that she can do on her own or to hold her or whatever she thought might get me out of bed. I kept telling her that I'm not going to get out of bed, that she can do it on her own. At one point I told her that if she were to go to bed on her own that Mommy would be very proud of her. After about 2 hours, she went back to her room and climbed into bed all by herself. She was sad to be going by herself, hesitant as if to wonder if she really has to walk down the dark hallway by herself. I heard her climb into bed and then cry out to me to put the blanket on her. I told her she could do it herself and she did. She put herself to sleep.
The part that got me and that I want to remember is this. At some point when she was back in bed she was whimpering and saying something. When I finally caught it I realized that she was repeatedly saying, "Mommy's proud of you." She kept repeating it until I shouted down the hallway and let her know that Mommy was very proud of her. I don't quite know why, but that brought me to tears. I think it's b/c it communicated to me that she just wants to be loved and that it's so important for her to know that even though Mommy didn't get out of bed to take her back to her room and she had to walk back on her own that she knows that Mommy loves her and sees what she did, in this case walk back to her room on her own.
We lost a good two hours of sleep last night, but I love my baby a lot that I can't dwell on that too much. She is such a tender and precious little soul. I can't wait to give her a hug after nap time.
Well, last night was one of those nights where I wanted to teach something. She eventually ending up standing at the side of my bed crying for me to tuck her in, to carry her back to her bed, to put her back in bed, etc. all things that she can do on her own or to hold her or whatever she thought might get me out of bed. I kept telling her that I'm not going to get out of bed, that she can do it on her own. At one point I told her that if she were to go to bed on her own that Mommy would be very proud of her. After about 2 hours, she went back to her room and climbed into bed all by herself. She was sad to be going by herself, hesitant as if to wonder if she really has to walk down the dark hallway by herself. I heard her climb into bed and then cry out to me to put the blanket on her. I told her she could do it herself and she did. She put herself to sleep.
The part that got me and that I want to remember is this. At some point when she was back in bed she was whimpering and saying something. When I finally caught it I realized that she was repeatedly saying, "Mommy's proud of you." She kept repeating it until I shouted down the hallway and let her know that Mommy was very proud of her. I don't quite know why, but that brought me to tears. I think it's b/c it communicated to me that she just wants to be loved and that it's so important for her to know that even though Mommy didn't get out of bed to take her back to her room and she had to walk back on her own that she knows that Mommy loves her and sees what she did, in this case walk back to her room on her own.
We lost a good two hours of sleep last night, but I love my baby a lot that I can't dwell on that too much. She is such a tender and precious little soul. I can't wait to give her a hug after nap time.
posted by haed at 12:58 PM
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