Confession and other things - H
Today, I left J sleeping in the car with the engine running and AC blasting and double parked while I picked up some fresh berries at the farmer's market for this tart I really wanted to make which in the end I may or may not make b/c I don't have graham crackers and I'm too exhausted to even entertain the idea of convincing J to follow me to the store once again let alone actually drag myself out there. Small tasks sometimes seem like immovable mountains with a toddler in tow, and I'm beginning to feel the fatigue that sets in during the last trimester of pregnancy on top of that. I'm beginning to feel like this is the beginning of the end...of my life.
Okay, I don't mean to be that dramatic. I was disappointed that I couldn't make this recipe though b/c I was looking forward to it. I expected J to take a super long nap (which I expect to be about 4 hours today b/c she only slept 7 hours last night, waking up at 4AM) so I thought I would prep most of it while she was sleeping. Did not happen. I don't want the berries to go to waste though, so I may make the trek out to the store anyway. We'll see.
I'm starting to have visions of my athletic self these days and am gaining some mental motivation to get back into shape a few months after baby #2 is born, say maybe with some trail running, hiking, climbing, swimming and other such things. It's always hard to start working out, so I'll need a lot of motivation to actually get started. We'll have to see how my body is doing by then. I see it as a good thing though, that I'm visualizing my "old self" again and considering plans to actually do some of the things that I used to do in what seems like a former life. I don't think I really did that after J was born. I just threw myself into motherhood b/c I was enjoying it so much. I think it might be different the second time around if I can juggle that and two kids. I hope finding a new life rhythm comes quickly.
I'm meeting with some florists in the coming weeks for another wedding. This wedding is larger and in the city with a bit of a larger budget so I'm excited about the possibilities. I think I found some creative people that can turn out some nice centerpieces and floral decor. I think I like this one in particular b/c they seem very out-of-the-box and creative. I don't know if we'll go with them in the end, and I have a feeling they will probably be quite pricey, but I'm excited about the possibility of working with them and finding out more about their work and their ideas. Maybe I'll have a chance to work with them in the future if not this time. Stuff like this excites me. What is it? I don't know. The creative aspect? The teamwork aspect? I do value both of these highly.
Anyway, I'm just killing time now b/c J has nearly completed her 4th hour of sleep and I don't have a tart to prep. I think she may be waking up soon though. Toodeloo!
Okay, I don't mean to be that dramatic. I was disappointed that I couldn't make this recipe though b/c I was looking forward to it. I expected J to take a super long nap (which I expect to be about 4 hours today b/c she only slept 7 hours last night, waking up at 4AM) so I thought I would prep most of it while she was sleeping. Did not happen. I don't want the berries to go to waste though, so I may make the trek out to the store anyway. We'll see.
I'm starting to have visions of my athletic self these days and am gaining some mental motivation to get back into shape a few months after baby #2 is born, say maybe with some trail running, hiking, climbing, swimming and other such things. It's always hard to start working out, so I'll need a lot of motivation to actually get started. We'll have to see how my body is doing by then. I see it as a good thing though, that I'm visualizing my "old self" again and considering plans to actually do some of the things that I used to do in what seems like a former life. I don't think I really did that after J was born. I just threw myself into motherhood b/c I was enjoying it so much. I think it might be different the second time around if I can juggle that and two kids. I hope finding a new life rhythm comes quickly.
I'm meeting with some florists in the coming weeks for another wedding. This wedding is larger and in the city with a bit of a larger budget so I'm excited about the possibilities. I think I found some creative people that can turn out some nice centerpieces and floral decor. I think I like this one in particular b/c they seem very out-of-the-box and creative. I don't know if we'll go with them in the end, and I have a feeling they will probably be quite pricey, but I'm excited about the possibility of working with them and finding out more about their work and their ideas. Maybe I'll have a chance to work with them in the future if not this time. Stuff like this excites me. What is it? I don't know. The creative aspect? The teamwork aspect? I do value both of these highly.
Anyway, I'm just killing time now b/c J has nearly completed her 4th hour of sleep and I don't have a tart to prep. I think she may be waking up soon though. Toodeloo!
posted by haed at 2:10 PM
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