Defining - H
For a long time now, I've been wondering what happened to the independent, "I-don't-care what-you-think-about-me", borderline feminist - "I-can-do-anything-a-man-can-do-and-better" me. She was a lot more than just these things, but I just highlight these few b/c I think these aspects of her personality were among the most prominent part of her character. These are also the parts of her that have changed the most.
Throughout college and for a little bit afterward, there has been some amount of insecurity present that was never there before. Growing up, I was always confident in my abilities, confident in who I was, but something changed when I hit college. I think it's that I started to care about what other people thought about me, which for me was probably a good thing. I was way on the other side of the spectrum.
These days, I've been feeling a lot more grounded and that I again know who I am and what I value most. It's changed quite a lot, but I feel like I am me and I feel comfortable in my own skin again.
I've never really thought ahead about what I want in a photo I've taken except to think about composition - how the subject is framed in the photo or what element in the photo I want to emphasize. Now that I know some "tricks" I have to consider a few more things and think about what I'm trying to elicit from a photo. An emotion? The character/essence of a person? A mood? Am I simply documenting what's happening? What do I hope to accomplish by taking a photograph? What do I want to convey, and how do I best do that with the camera? using the light? Photography is actually very deliberate. I have a lot to learn, and I need to practice.
BTW, I need to read the syllabus. I turned in my flash assignment today only to find out that it wasn't due until next week. The next assignment which I was prepared to turn in next week isn't due for 3 weeks. What a relief! So, now I'm ahead, and I can spend some time printing photos for my personal enjoyment and maybe that will adorn the walls of our wonderful abode. I might actually like flash photography if I get into it a bit more. What you can do with it is actually pretty neat.
Throughout college and for a little bit afterward, there has been some amount of insecurity present that was never there before. Growing up, I was always confident in my abilities, confident in who I was, but something changed when I hit college. I think it's that I started to care about what other people thought about me, which for me was probably a good thing. I was way on the other side of the spectrum.
These days, I've been feeling a lot more grounded and that I again know who I am and what I value most. It's changed quite a lot, but I feel like I am me and I feel comfortable in my own skin again.
I've never really thought ahead about what I want in a photo I've taken except to think about composition - how the subject is framed in the photo or what element in the photo I want to emphasize. Now that I know some "tricks" I have to consider a few more things and think about what I'm trying to elicit from a photo. An emotion? The character/essence of a person? A mood? Am I simply documenting what's happening? What do I hope to accomplish by taking a photograph? What do I want to convey, and how do I best do that with the camera? using the light? Photography is actually very deliberate. I have a lot to learn, and I need to practice.
BTW, I need to read the syllabus. I turned in my flash assignment today only to find out that it wasn't due until next week. The next assignment which I was prepared to turn in next week isn't due for 3 weeks. What a relief! So, now I'm ahead, and I can spend some time printing photos for my personal enjoyment and maybe that will adorn the walls of our wonderful abode. I might actually like flash photography if I get into it a bit more. What you can do with it is actually pretty neat.
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