Recent thoughts and baby stuff - H
Hm...what to write. I think we're getting closer to settling on a name for baby. I had names in mind from the beginning, but then I started looking into name books and looking at on-line baby-name sites. There were so many choices, and I was overwhelmed. In the end I just came back to a name I originally liked, and the more I think about it, the more I like it. I'm open to other names, so I won't say we've decided, but almost.
We bought a crib and mattress, our first, big baby purchase. It's stained espresso, and sort of looks mission style, but not as rigid and straight. It doesn't have a drop rail, and so it's a bit lower than the traditional drop rail crib. I like that a lot b/c it's more open and a little less like a cage. (No offense to anyone who has the drop-rail crib. That was just my initial impression.) The lines are much more interesting, with a headboard and footboard that flare slightly. I'm hoping to find some classy, simple bedding in creams, browns, and reds, but I'm not quite sure where to find what I'm looking for. I think what I'm really looking for is also solid construction and quality fabric. (Well, that's what I always look for when buying something I guess.) I'll probably only find it at some specialty boutique at which point I'll have to decide if I really need to have it. The big stores all carry similar items and not quite what I'm looking for. (Hm...should I really care this much about baby bedding & decor?)
I'm not quite sure I'm prepared for the kind of life change all this is going to bring. In addition to having a baby, I won't be working anymore, which brings along with it a smaller household income. These things in themselves are pretty significant life changes, and I guess I can't be completely prepared to experience them. What will it be like?
So, my latest epiphany, is that my core values do not depend on my life circumstances. Instead, whatever my life circumstances, I guess I'm talking about financial circumstances in particular, I need to think of my possessions as a tool to promote those values, rather than to think of those things as necessary. So, this is what I mean. I've always thought in the past that in order to promote certain things about family, that I should have a house b/c there's so much wrapped up in this idea of "house" that says "family." I'm not saying that's not true, but that's not to say that I can't do it without a house either. I mean perhaps I will never have one. Who knows? I can still promote my ideas of family without one. My values still remain regardless. It's just a tool that I can use if we have one someday.
I'm more surrendered to this idea that I just don't need things, including a house. Of course those feelings well up sometimes, but in general I think I'm unclenching my fist slowly and asking God what He has for me in the future in all things big and small. If I can live a simple life with warm and meaningful experiences, I think I would be full.
We bought a crib and mattress, our first, big baby purchase. It's stained espresso, and sort of looks mission style, but not as rigid and straight. It doesn't have a drop rail, and so it's a bit lower than the traditional drop rail crib. I like that a lot b/c it's more open and a little less like a cage. (No offense to anyone who has the drop-rail crib. That was just my initial impression.) The lines are much more interesting, with a headboard and footboard that flare slightly. I'm hoping to find some classy, simple bedding in creams, browns, and reds, but I'm not quite sure where to find what I'm looking for. I think what I'm really looking for is also solid construction and quality fabric. (Well, that's what I always look for when buying something I guess.) I'll probably only find it at some specialty boutique at which point I'll have to decide if I really need to have it. The big stores all carry similar items and not quite what I'm looking for. (Hm...should I really care this much about baby bedding & decor?)
I'm not quite sure I'm prepared for the kind of life change all this is going to bring. In addition to having a baby, I won't be working anymore, which brings along with it a smaller household income. These things in themselves are pretty significant life changes, and I guess I can't be completely prepared to experience them. What will it be like?
So, my latest epiphany, is that my core values do not depend on my life circumstances. Instead, whatever my life circumstances, I guess I'm talking about financial circumstances in particular, I need to think of my possessions as a tool to promote those values, rather than to think of those things as necessary. So, this is what I mean. I've always thought in the past that in order to promote certain things about family, that I should have a house b/c there's so much wrapped up in this idea of "house" that says "family." I'm not saying that's not true, but that's not to say that I can't do it without a house either. I mean perhaps I will never have one. Who knows? I can still promote my ideas of family without one. My values still remain regardless. It's just a tool that I can use if we have one someday.
I'm more surrendered to this idea that I just don't need things, including a house. Of course those feelings well up sometimes, but in general I think I'm unclenching my fist slowly and asking God what He has for me in the future in all things big and small. If I can live a simple life with warm and meaningful experiences, I think I would be full.
posted by haed at 6:17 PM
2 Comments:
that sounds like quite the crib you've picked out. your baby will be sleeping in style.
but you know what, i don't remember what kind of crib sheets i had as a baby. i'm not sure if i had sheets, or if i had a crib even. i think i slept in my parents' bed a lot actually. and i know for a fact that my "car seat" consisted of a cardboard box with blankets and pillows. so maybe that'll help take some of the pressure off of picking out baby accessories.
Here's a tip about baby crib sheets: After your baby pees on it three or four times, you really won't care what sheets you got. In fact, you'll wish you got the cheapest ones available.
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